Friday, March 13, 2015

Six Words

Afraid for no reason; no sleep

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Six Words

Ten years out, not a trace.

Monday, March 2, 2015

Six Words

All that sun after so long.

Friday, February 27, 2015

A Spool of Blue Thread

I can feel my mind unraveling.

There are names I don't remember, faces I don't recall.  Whole chunks of my life, months and even years, have faded from Hopper to Monet.  High school is a vague beige wash.  Childhood a couple of lilies in a dull blue sea.  I regret nothing- but only because I don't remember it.

It's tragic, of course, as every loss is tragic.  It's dull, of course, as every loss is dull. 

And it may be signatory- my grandparents had Alzheimers; my father has Alzheimers; my aunt and uncle have Alzheimers.  There's research to suggest that the brain changes that go on to be so devastating in people who develop Alzheimers start not in the seventies, but in the thirties-  and I can definitely feel my circuits dimming, jamming, slowing, flickering-

whatever verb you want to cough up in an attempt to demonstrate your verbal fluency, the fact that you can still string a sentence together, damnit-

I figure I have about twenty five writing years left.

Does that fact that you will lose a skill make it incumbent on you to use that skill to its fullest capacity in as short a time as possible? To burn through it before it burns away?  Or should you learn to live without it, wean yourself bit by bit from its grip so when it goes, it doesn't knife as deep? 

You could beg the same question of love, of course.  Or beauty, or money, or peak oil, or the various discontinued varieties of M&Ms.  Hold fast or let go?  Hang on or Hang loose?

There might be an answer- I can't recall.

Thursday, February 26, 2015


There are many things to like about snow.  It's lovely, to start, in panorama and in particulate.  It forces a slowdown.  It covers a multitude of lawn care sins.

But best of all, snow is democratic.  Unlike cable news or the Internet or our careers or our family lives, it's something we all experience together- one nation under a winter storm warning.

And there's not much left in our lives like that.  The long tail, that animalistic retailing concept, sweeps us into smaller and smaller and smaller subgroups. We choose what to watch and when to watch it, what to read and when to read it.  We speak only to people who look like us, talk like us, and think like us, reinforcing our stratification with likes and shares. 

And then it snows, and here we all are.  Cold or cozy, cautious or intrepid: watching the white come down.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Six Words

Glorious space heater: mine, all mine.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Six Words

That dirty baby, already wriggling free.